slow all the things

So...the other day it struck me as I was sitting in the nursery at 1:30 in the morning, caring for Levi, that sometimes my prayers appear to be much like Aladdin-just rub the lamp and hope something happens. It is almost as if I pray to a genie in a bottle rather than the God of the Universe. For example: "Please, Lord, allow Levi to sleep for 5 hours after this feeding." "Please, God, keep Roman in bed until 7:00." "Lord, could you make a way for me to shower at least 3 times this week instead of 2?" Do you get what I am saying? The Lord is really challenging me on my prayer life and the one thing is to look at what is really worth praying about and what is really not worth thinking about. "Lord God, please work in my heart, that I may walk in your Spirit today. That I may see with your eyes and take action in the way you desire. Give me the patience to work with my children if they don't have enough sleep. May I worship you in all things a...

So...Levi went in for surgery this morning to drain an infection (abscess). This is a fairly minor surgery but in light of the fact that he is just 42 days old and "such a little guy" the concern is still heavy on one's heart. When I found out yesterday that he would have to have surgery, my heart sunk and I struggled to see what was fair in the situation. How could one so small have to endure such suffering? Upon asking the Lord this question, immediately, He spoke to my heart. He reminded me of those that have had to experience their child in moments of suffering or struggle. My friend Mandy, who delivered little Ellie at 27 or 28 weeks gestation and Paul and Adrienne who delivered their baby at 30 weeks...they have witnessed needles, IV's, and many sleepless nights with uncertainty for the next day. Yet, they are making it. God is providing and has provided for them. Even deeper, the Lord brought me to the feet of the Father. As I was driving it was as if H...