slow all the things

Similar to my husband, I see the lessons God is teaching me through our children.  In the early morning hours, I realized something about myself that I thought could never be.  As I gazed upon my crying child, ready to scream myself, the Lord revealed such a truth about my character...I am selfish. It was the most startling and humbling touch of the Father's hand.  As He opened the window to my heart (so that I could see the reality of who I really can be), my eyes filled with tears and my gut wrenched.  I saw my "need" for sleep as a priority over Levi's need to poop.  I saw my "need" for a shower more important than Roman's need for play time.  I saw my "need" for time around the fire pit more important than Levi's need for affection and care.  How could I be the mother of such selfishness?  When did I get wrapped into this blanket of personal need?   You see, Roman is sort of on this kick of "mine."  You've heard of that be...

For over five years now, I have been sharing much of my time and energy in the company of my closest friend and confidant. I have verbally processed many stories, life experiences, memories, and lessons with he alone and apparently, this is not enough. The whole world needs to have the opportunity to read what I have to say. Therefore, I must follow the lead of my dashing, daring, and wise husband, jump into a land I am completely confused by, and do the unthinkable...become a "blogger" to share with you, my "notes from the inside out".